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MY SWEETEST DECEMBER EVER - 2017

December isn't always nice to me. In 2015, I caught my ex-fiance cheating for the whole year. In every months of 2016, I crying a lot because my cute dog, Snowy ran away which I'm so panic at that time, cried, had the nightmares almost everyday, pray that she would still be alive and safe, and every time I walked my dogs, I screaming her name "Snowy, Snowy!"along the way in hope that she'll hear and running to me. I felt I've been cursed or punished for such bad years that I must going through.
One day on the mid of  December 2017, I saw someone post on the Dog Lovers Group, that her daughter posted in her blog about found  2 dogs that she love and finally adopt them. I clicked that blog and start to read it. At the first photo that she attached, I feel like that is my Snowy, but I'm not sure enough. And i continued to read and found the second photo and I instantly recognize that is my Snowy. My heart just know it at that time. I immediately message her …

RESOLUTIONS YEAR 2018

December is always been a month full of festive in my opinion. The mall also racing to decorate their lobby with christmas tree, choir, and  lots of christmas-sy. Jakarta is a tropical country which is only have rain and summer season. Oh the humid is so high even when it rains, we sweats too.

My December is about contemplating beside the spree. What I would like to do in the full next year, what  I should not do and how to achieve it. 2016 - 2017 was not the best year for me. The last 2 years I'm just trying to moving on, just keep moving on even it's just a little step and I can't doing this for the rest of my life. Now it's my time to move forward and do things that I sacrificed before.

So, here are my list of resolutions for year 2018:

Saving money. Duh obviously ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. It's always my last years resolutions and always be my top list.Traveling. Here is my new resolution. I know it will be hard for me to do this, because as you may know, travelling with t…

MY JOURNEY FOR THE LAST 2 YEARS

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From the lied, betrayed and take my dogs away in the same time was he did to me in December 2 years ago today. December 9th  2015 to be exact, and since then, I always asking what I've done wrong to be deserve this. And so many times I watched my friends with their little family, I felt pain and jealous because just only one more step I'll be happy like them too.  My last 2 years filled with can't breath, pains, nightmares, tears and negativeness. Let me say, that all those wedding invitation from friends that just makes me emotionally attacked and total break down. I'm 100% happy for them but it's kinda like feeling alone and terrifying me.
"Fool you, 10 years for nothing." I curses my self everyday. "Fool you to trusting him to return your dogs, but now he sold your 3 of your dogs" or "How come you taken the wrong path? Don't you see all those red lights?" or " It's too late now for asking your dogs to be returned."…

HAKKYO BACKPACK : THE REVIEW

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I need backpack, for sure. Ya, karena sekarang jarak antara rumah dengan kantor jauh dan harus berusaha mandiri maka transportasi yang kuandalkan sekarang adalah motor. Yap, Indonesia masih mengijinkan motor sebagai alat transportasi pribadi (di Korea Selatan tidak mengizinkan motor sebagai sarana transportasi pribadi melainkan hanya untuk take away restaurant yang mempunyai izin).

Jarak pulang pergi rumah ke kantor 47km (+/- 2 jam 30 menit). Yap lagi. Jauh benar hahaha. Tuntutan hidup, Teman! :) Oleh karena itu saya butuh backpack supaya aman naik motor dan ga ribet sama barang bawaan.

Hakkyo Backpack adalah hasil inspirasi salah satu wirausaha (Atdiva.com) di Jogya yang melihat pangsa pasar di Indonesia akan ngefans-nya Indonesia terhadap style di Korea Selatan.
Bagi saya, tas ini mirip dengan Fjallraven Kanken yang ngetop di Swedish. Saya suka dengan tas ransel ini. Besar memang, tapi itulah yang saya suka. Dan kerennya semua bagiannya dilapisi dengan busa. Harga sekitar IDR 150.00…

FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY BROKEN HEART

Banyak yang setuju 2015 adalah tahun terbaik mereka. Well,I am not one of them. Ketidaksetiaan telah mengakhiri hubungan pertunangan saya dengannya and it hurts like hell. Impian yang sudah dibangun bersama hampir 10 tahun hancur berantakan. Penyesalan? Ada. 10 tahun hancur seperti kena gempa bumi. Gempa yang mengguncang hidup saya. Bahkan saya kehilangan peliharaan saya. Menyesal seandainya saja dulu kami tidak memutuskan bersama untuk memelihara hewan peliharaan, maka mereka tidak akan menjadi korban karena kami.
Teman teman mendukung saya untuk melupakan dia. Ya, hanya cuma punya 1 jalan itu saja. Melupakannya. Bahwa dia bukan orang yang tepat untuk saya. Hidup untuk masa depan, Seandainya segampang itu, saya katakan pada mereka. Tetapi mereka bilang, "kamu cuma punya 1 pilihan itu saja. Jalan maju"
So here I am. Masih berusaha melupakannya. Melewati hari demi hari semoga suatu saat nanti saya dapat melupakanmu. Masih berusaha untuk memaafkanmu. Jika tidak dapat memaafkan…