It's My Little Corner

God, I want to be a better person. I want the change in my life. Maybe I only have few more years, maybe not. Or maybe have a long life. I don't know, but there are so many thoughts juggling in my little brain. So many questions there too which i have not found the answer. From all of the times, Am I really bad person so everyone leave me to be alone? Am I gonna be forever alone? Will I be grow older by myself? Are You punishing me because I'm an evil person all this time nonstop? I know that God has a purpose to me because He created me. There must be a reason why I was born. Or am I just an outcast? How God speak to me? Do God want to speak to me? Am I worth it so God want to speak to me? Or I'm just really stubborn so I can't heard Your voice? Or You spoke to me from someone else? Would God talk directly to me one day? How do I know what God command me? My thoughts are: I'm a really really a bad person so I become like this right now. I'm no